The Journey of Loving You

Breathless as I watch you walk away

Hurt as I yearn for your touch, your voice

Why do you walk away so easily without thinking twice

Do I scare you?

Did you think it would be easy?

Why seek if you don’t want to really know what lies behind the makeup

Maybelline only provides a dream and illusion of beauty

I hide my past scars though they have help me become stronger

Independent because I've had to be

I've had no one to protect me outside of God

No one to walk with me in faith and not by sight

I need a soul that is willing to fight

Kiss me goodnight and mean each word spilled from thy mouth

Love me through all tragedies and for what comes from my mouth

I’ve learned from my pain

Pain has been weakness spilled from my body that I never knew that I had

Each tear drops into a river of my past sorrows

I pray and seek guidance

I pray for answers

Wanting to just let it go and never come back

Hoping to forget you

Convince myself to not think about you

I question why even though the answers will be provided through out this journey

Is my lifestyle the culprit of my hurt?

Am I not pretty enough?

Balanced enough?

Do I scare you ?

I open up to only place the bricks up that have been removed

I want to love you openly I have tried to be as open as I could be

You seem afraid to love me as equally

I take my time as I am cautious

Watching for the moment waiting for the pain

I am so use to it I fell numb

No longer able to move

No longer able to cry out

Silently I turn it over

I extend my hand to give it to my father for he is the only protector I know

I don’t look to you to take away my fears I look to you to stop placing me in tears

My heart has scars of World War II

Something I never though you would do

Yet and still I yearn to be with you

Believe there is potential in you

Unsure if you'll stay and fight

Fearful of flight

Strong enough to still stand with you

That’s all a part of loving someone like you